Yeah! You must definitely watch it. It's a very good good good movie, i'll rate it as 11 over 10. Maybe you'll do the same, i just cried. It was a sad movie, but then i think i just bumped my head over the wall and realized that there are so many things in this world that you need to love and appreciate. Especially the people around you, friends, family, even new friends. Cause life is happy, unexpected things could happen, love, it's everything, but in the end, of course no one knows when is the ending of this beautiful story only God knows when and how and i think i feel scared about it. I still need to do a million things in this world, but you wanna know what's on the top list? It's to be loved by everyone, by all of the people i loved the most and cared for, i guess that's too much for me before I..okay let's not say it. *knock on wood I know that God, still have plans for me. Thanks for everything. You know all my worries, doubts, pains and happiness, i share it with you every night and every time i needed you. I just don't know or I can't explain what I'm feeling right now, I don't know if I'm happy or what.
Yes, i think i knew it just 5 sec ago. I guess I'm too weak for this kind of feeling, I'm feeling too weak for someone like you. Can you believe it? Why can't I be someone like my cousin for example. Because a while ago I was with him and my aunt and they would be visiting my aunt's friend who is from states and will be leaving tomorrow. My aunt said "Gusto ka na daw makita ng pamangkin ng kaibigan ko, mukhang interesado talaga sayo" Yeah, my aunt asked my cousin who is single to meet the nephew of her friend. So that's the story, I still don't know what happened, i'll ask my aunt tomorrow. Hihi. So i just realized, how come my cousin who is really a big guy, but deep inside a sensitive and soft heart and yes a man of few words have this kind of strong feeling of meeting a woman whom he doesn't even know, not even 1 percent of the looks or personality. I know man is different from woman when it comes to this, but I just salute him for having balls!
Guys, I don't mean of having balls too. lol laughing hard at this i just can't stop typing and thinking of words and sentences to type here. For a long time, i know i'm big (physically) and yes i thought i'm strong enough to face everything, that I don't get scared of being broken or anything similar to that, that I can face everything that comes at my way, when you leave me alone i tell you people, i could be so fragile and just sit or lay in bed and think about the things that is happening, that it scares the shit out of me. I got so scared that my hands are getting sweaty and I just keep on calling God and tell him to let me realize that everything's gonna be okay. Will it be? I guess, if you want something go for it, never regret of doing that cause one day, you'll realize that's the only thing that could make you feel the happiest human being alive and free from anything that could hurt you. So, never.
It'll take time to demolish the weak side of my walls, and replaced it with stronger ones.
"I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts. I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out"
