Brand New

It's almost New Year's eve, and i still haven't started doing my school homeworks. I don't want the minutes or seconds to move, i don't want to waste any moment right now, and i just want to inhale everything right now that exist around and within me. I feel like nothing (no one) is left for me. I feel like i don't exist in the world where everyone else seems to be so happy and free. I keep on losing the light that was meant to be followed. 

I still remember that moment when i woke up feeling all so brand new and i've got nothing to worry about. That 1st day of the year 2012, the moment my eyes and my lungs started to breath some air, i remember myself sleeping into tears before that moment. It still tears me up inside just a little every now and then. The smell of my sheets every morning, the footsteps from the stairs, the smiles and laughs with so much beauty in it, i won't forget that. I will always remember you as you are right now to me, remember you now. 

It will always be a chapter of the book with a marker on top, so i won't forget and it will always remind me to remember every moment of it. Why am i even blogging right now if i can't even help myself to think and just write everything that happened to me this year. 

I guess i am still dying.