Friday the 13th

So basically, as a summary for this day I ended up going home with 50 bucks on my purse, because my 1k peso bill is lost somewhere. Just like what my friend says "Everything happens for a reason" and yes I'm hoping for a good reason for that. But still I had dinner with my friends at our favorite place here on earth, the best fast food chain is tan tanan tanan, McDonalds. Haha funny. My friends lend some money for me, I love them so much for being supportive and understanding in any way. So yeah, still I ended up my day with a big smile on my face. 


And I can't help myself watching UDD's live performances on youtube. Especially if the song is in extended version, soulful adlibs and everything! Ahhhh soothing, i just can't wait for the next album.  Let me share to you this song from their Album: Bipolar Title: Sana by Up Dharma Down


Nilibot na ang buong mundo
Di pa rin ako nakukuntento
Makakahanap ng ipapalit
Nang walang babala
Lumipas ay nagbabalik pala

Nalilito na ako hindi na dapat gan'to
Nakaraan ay natapos at napagdaanan na
Bakit na sisindak pa sa t'wing naaalala
Matatauhan na wala ka na pala

Ako sila'y nandito na
Ikaw na lang ang kulang
Anong lunod o lalim ba't 'di na lang lumutang
Anong pait ang matamis at aking susubukan
Anong silbi ng narito
'Di mo na kailangan

Hindi nga nagtagal ang pagpapanggap na 'to
Kaliwa at kanan harap at likod ano mang anggulo
Titigan ay bumibigay ako

Damdamin ay kay bigat
Naisip na ang lahat
Wala na ba talaga akong magagawa pa

Ako sila'y nandito na
Ikaw na lang ang kulang
Anong lunod o lalim ba't 'di na lang lumutang
Anong tamis ang mapait at aking iiwasan
Walang silbi ang narito
'Di mo na kailangan

Wala na bang makakapantay at di na ba dapat pang maghintay
Ako lang ba ang nagkasala?
Kumakapit sa natitirang sana.

Kung babalik ka pa hanggang kailan kaya?
Ako dito mag aabang na magdutong na ang patlang
Ang kulang ay mapupunan wala nang makahahadlang
Wala na yatang hihigit sa pangungulila ko
Iba na bang nagbibigay ng mga kailangan mo?

Oh sana
Kay higpit ng kapit sa unan kagabi ko
Oh sana
Inaasam muling makatabi at mahalik sana

Every song of UDD seems like a letter or something you write on your diaries and secret notebooks. Just my opinion, because it feels like every word written have its story about it. Intriguing. lol Well anyway, yes this song is making love in my ears every night. 

"Hindi na 'to magbabago, ito ang nais ko. Hindi ko kayang mapalayo sayo dahil babalik at babalik padin ako."

Still looking up

I'm raping the replay button on youtube, because I am listening to the new song of Jason Mraz "I Won't Give Up". I just can't describe or tell how deep this song really means. The words are very simple and yet the feeling is so deep. Maybe I could say these things because It is the same exact words I have wanted to tell you for a very long time. Yes baby, I guess I can't give up on us. But I'm still not sure if the "Us" is present in this situation. I hope I could find a man like Jason Mraz or John Mayer (the top 2 from my favorites) who could sing while you sleep or just lay in a couch while holding a guitar and say the sweetest words you could ever imagine. I'll tell you a secret! Hihi For me, a big turn on is a guy who could really sing ang play a guitar. Maybe that made me liked him. lol Anyway! No more clues! lol! hahaha So I guess I'll just share the lyrics of the song. Try to listen to it and try to think how every word is said and how sweet this song could be.

Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmm ...

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up 

I guess I have fallen. Wow big word. :)

Defining the Relationship

Young blood by The Naked and Famous from the album Passive Me, Aggressive You.


We're only young and naive still
We require certain skills
The mood it changes like the wind
Hard to control when it begins

The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Can't help myself but count the flaws
Claw my way out through these walls
One temporary escape
Feel it start to permeate

We lie beneath the stars at night
Our hands gripping each other tight
You keep my secrets hope to die
Promises, swear them to the sky

The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

As it withers
Brittle it shakes
Can you whisper
As it crumbles and breaks
As you shiver
Count up all your mistakes
Pair of forgivers
Let go before it's too late
Can you whisper
Can you whisper
Can you whisper
Can you whisper

The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
The bittersweet between my teeth 
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah yeah yeah yeah


Now, this year can we figure out what this is. I'm not desperate because I'm dying to know. It's because I'm like a movie that you can't play and have been paused for a while now. Is the "We" and "Us" present in this situation? I just need some answers so I can shut the fuck up now. Do I sound like a desperate teenager? Yes, you could say that. Could you repeat it again for me? Did you just said "Yes"?


Help me with this one.