Saturday, July 14, 2012

Anywhere but here

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I woke up in the right side of the bed, i snuggle more into the sheets and the breeze of the morning touches my skin it makes me feel safe and warm. This is the day I've been waiting for weeks and forever. I can't feel my toes from the cold and my hands are shaky. The door was opened, so i walk through it seeing you smiling right back at me. The way your skin form into beauty and those perfect crystal clear eyes washes every stain in my body. I've always wanted to see that perfection every time the sun rises to the east and sets to the west. I smell the fresh brewed coffee and some toasted bread topped with unsalted butter on the table, we sat, i stare right back at you like there's no tomorrow. We didn't want to waste the time to utter words and get lost in the middle, instead the time freezes every millisecond we moved. 


Munch, munch, munch, all i do is munch and looked through the lines of the table made of oak wood. My skin was right in front of you, you smile and close your eyes, i want to utter these words I've always kept in me but i just can't, maybe because i can't help myself but to eat. 


Took a shower and left all the plates and cups on the sink, it don't matter. You grabbed the keys, i grabbed the bags. I took out the map and started looking where were heading. Still no words were uttered, all i hear is the car machine being pumped by the gasoline, the whistling air, and the tires screeching from the road. I opened the window to breath some fresh air, i see the sun hiding from the cliffs and clouds stretched out through the sky, come and see us shine so bright. The road was long enough that i fell asleep. 
As i opened my eyes, i smell the cold salty ocean, i hear the mad waves crashing through the huge rocks and cliffs, i saw you staring at me probably the whole time i was sleeping. Still i can't utter the words. I pull up the seat, took off the seat belt, started stretching my arms and body and as i stepped through the thin wavy grass, i smiled. 

All I could think of right now is to stand right next to you. I walked right beside you as you were watching how the waves calmed your rushing blood and circling thoughts. I know how you feel, how you want to take a deep dive to wash away all the worries and hate that distresses you. Let it go, let it fly through the air and beyond the earth, you are free all along don't let it bother you. Silence killed us right through and suddenly the words were uttered.


"Did you find what your looking for?"
"Yes I think, I did."
"Tell me."
"Anywhere but here with you is all I want."
"It took years, why?"
"We don't need to hurry, we've got all the years..."
"I know, for us to share"


You dragged me down to the sea, feeling the waves kicking in me as you arms  surrounds my empty space, don't be gone dear or the waves might dragged me down to the broken ground. As we lay down to the black shoreline sands, i wiped you clean with dirty hands. We'll soak ourselves forever in this boiling space, we'll leave it all down here, we'll be long gone through the sky and suddenly i fell through the thick air....I was dreaming, lying down on the right side of the bed, it was morning, the coffee, the bread, the table and the bags.


It all happened.