I don't know what to say, so i left it blank

This song is very beautiful. The title is Chocolate by Snow Patrol from the album "Final Straw". And as I listen to it, every line of it, i remember you. I know what you said means no, honestly i don't know why i just said that to you. Maybe i just can't bear this feeling anymore. Just like what The Fray said "If I don't say this now, I will surely break". I needed you, more than i needed anyone before. Am I being too forward about this? I don't know anything about this idk. You said it, maybe I don't need to answer it anymore, i fully understand it. Give me time.


This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home

With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25

This is the straw, final straw
In the roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time

You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer

Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words

What have I done? It's too late for that
What have I become? Truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask this time


I am sorry for wanting more. I just wanted more from you, now i am sure about that. 

I'm officially missing you

10:49 pm, December 24, 2011. Malapit na magpasko, hindi ko naiisip ang mga regalo na matatanggap ko, o kung malaki ba ang mga laman ng envelope na ibibigay sakin. Iniisip ko, kung ano ano ba ang mga dapat kong pasalamatan kay Lord, madaming nangyari ngayong taon na hinding hindi ko makakalimutan. Pero wait lang, hindi ito ang year-end blog ko. Pasko pa lang e. Haha


Lord, I'm officially missing you. Pasensya na hindi na kita masyadong nakakausap bago ako matulog, baka isipin mo nilalapitan lang kita pag kailangan ko ng tulong. Pasensya na lagi ako nagpupuyat na halos maguumaga na ako kung matulog, at sa sobrang antok ko, nakakalimutan kong kausapin ka, pasalamatan ka, at kwentuhan ka. Malapit na ang kaarawan mo, oo maraming nakakalimot na ang Pasko ay kaarawan mo at hindi araw ng bigayan ng mga regalo na galing kay Ninong at Ninang. Sana magustuhan mo ang handog naming kainan para sayo. Sana masarapan ka, luto ni nanay yan. Sabi nga ni Rihanna sa kanta nyang "Run This Town", You're gonna run this town tonight. Di ba? Para samin, kahit hindi kami nakapagsimba, o nakapagdasal bago kumain, hinding hindi ka namin nakakalimutan, at lalong lalo na hindi namin nakalimutan na kaarawan mo ngayon, habang buhay kasama mo kami tuwing kaarawan mo. Mahal na mahal ka namin! Maraming Salamat sa lahat!


MALIGAYANG PASKO SA INYONG LAHAT! :-)

I've been thinking a lot

About the varsity thing the first time i got on college 3 years ago. I've been to playing a men sport, basketball. They say only the tough guys can play ball, but they don't know that there are a lot of tough women too. Well, I guess I'm one of them. Yes, I do play women sport too like volleyball and badminton. But I'm not as good when I'm playing ball. I guess that's my passion. I'm the only girl who plays ball in the family, and of course my guy cousins its natural to them don't you think?


I've been playing basketball since I was in elementary years. I can't remember who influenced or inspired me to play, maybe i was born with it. It's my skill that God gave me. Well, Thank you Lord for giving me a unique skill for a women to have and I promise you to treasure and improve it. I have a lot of girl friends who also play ball, and also become my teammates during high school. I did not join the varsity during high school, i just play during our intrams week and i just got luck on my last year in high school, I got the Most Valuable Player award! Yey! Can you believe that? No. Srsly? No. Yes, me too. Hahaha


So the point is, of course I want to join the varsity team in UST or just the varsity team of our college, basta varsity. But i just realized that I won't be finishing my Interior Design course in 4 years, i know for sure that i would be extending for more than 2 years so a total of 6 years, its because of the training everyday, the conditioning and everything. I can't focus on my studies and plates. I know that for sure, now that I am in 3rd year already. I've been thinking what could happen if i joined the team and continued my passion of playing ball? 


Oh god I miss basketball.

Spitting Fire

12/17/2011


Saturday, Christmas vacation is here! Finally I could sleep whenever I want to, or do whatever I want. I've been looking forward for this day its because I feel so tired from everything, a lot of issues happened, a lot of pain and sacrifice, a lot of stress and mess. I guess I've been through a lot this past month, well I don't want to enumerate everything here. Basta, I've been through a lot, like ups and downs. Haha 


So, I've just watched "The Art of Getting By" a while ago. Starring Emma Roberts and Freddie Highmore. The guy from the chocolate factory is now a hottie! lol Do you remember him?

This is not a movie blog, so I won't write a review about it, I am just recommending this movie because It made me cry, and I really love the uniqueness of this movie. I'll rate it as 11/10. I recommended this, because I could really relate, not from the whole movie itself but only in some parts of it.  A movie that talks about a lot of things, you could actually get it from its title itself. I just have a few questions in my mind after watching this, Why do some guys don't have the guts to tell a girl how they feel about them? There could be a lot of answers, I know that but I'm not 100 percent sure about it. Maybe they are too scared they might lose that someone, or they are not sure of what they feel about you, or they are just waiting for that someone to do the first move. But, the thought of staying and being with that someone without labels or anything, it just feels good. But deep inside you hunger for that words or phrases or that status of your closeness, your relationship with each other. Some people hunger for that, some people don't just really care about it, as long as your there. Just as long as you stay.

But for me, staying too long will make you look stupid in the end. Staying for something you're not sure of, like your hanging from a cliff and you're not sure if someone is going to save you, or you'll die by falling, or maybe you'll fall but then he might catch you. You can't predict what could happen, just like what they say "It just happens". But i learned something from the movie, we've got a lot of time in this world to be whatever we wanted to be, or to be with someone we really loved. This is not the only time, we could be together someday. Who knows? Di ba? In the right time and in the right place.

"Wasn't fit to have you but I will never run and hide. I don't feel so bad and then I will not apologize"