No scent at all

I was staring at the blank ceiling, wondering why it's so plain and dull. These walls that have known me for so long has no life, but it has been understanding and patient. Something may not be right, but for so long I've been chasing a butterfly which is very odd and peculiar and now all i see is fog. Everyday I've been seeing dawn at daylight, I've been picking roses from desert, I've been chasing happiness on the other side, and I've been setting aside the loneliness and emptiness that I'm keeping. 

What is it left to hear? What is it left to see? What is it left to feel? I couldn't say a word. I couldn't think of a memory. But what is it left for me, dear? Have i gone too far enough? Have i been holding on from something you couldn't give? Have I fallen out of love? What is it on your mind i couldn't perceive and comprehend? Have I kept it for so long and was gone after each beat that i feel in my living heart? I just couldn't step on the surface of the ground, save me from this floating thick air. 

I am breaking down every millisecond of the moment, everything is elusive. I would be gone, finding myself from this subtle smile. 

The flower blooms and grows, but the scent doesn't stay for too long. Nothing last.

How to save a life

My chest
As if 
In love, 
Pounds

My head - 
Light, yet full 
With headlights, 
Acclimatises

I was caught 
Crossing 
The street.
The chance 
I took 
In change
Hooked me 
Through the cheek

Now
My heart
As if in love, aches 
In the absence 
Of breath

by Loqui

I have written some words, phrases and sentences. But i just can't complete the thought and idea with what i'm writing. No one could help me, but myself alone. I needed time to comprehend and put the pieces back together. I need to collect and restore my thoughts, emotions and everything that completes myself. But i just can't... Time is the only friend i have right now.

I am lost.

Where did i go wrong, I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness.

The world is our playground, and we will always be home

7 hours have passed, and still i'm still stuck with myself holding back unto something that is very dense as of the moment. But the feeling, or the emotion i have right now is clearer than crystals. 

What about you? What might have you been thinking? What could you be feeling? What is it that is in your heart? What is it that tells you to wake up in the morning and end the day smiling? What? *Sorry but i just have to admit that i sound so...cheesy. LOL 

I'm trying to post here as quickly as possible, short thoughts, and nope this is not random. Yes blog, you know who it is. The only one ever since.

You're my sunshine, my occasional rain.

Ask and Tell

I am being stupid again. What am I doing? Am I doing it wrong? What do i have to do? Everything seems to be unfair, I needed something you can't give. There, I've said it. What do you think you should do? I am blaming you for being like this, for being "you". 

Maybe all I have, I, yes me. All I have to do is ask, and again i would be hoping you would tell me what it is that you do to me.

I need you so much closer.

Words I can't even fathom

Everything just happens all of a sudden, you were doing it again. You're being unpredictable again. You're giving me hope all over again. You're giving me a reason to stay and to hold on to something you can't even say or comprehend.  

Again, just again. I could say that waiting would take a lot of courage and time, but that's all i could do for now. It could take months or years, but everyday it grows fonder and existent. Thinking twice is not enough, time is the only thing that could help us right now. 

I lay down and think of it, that maybe it could be nothing but that's being stupid. Cause i know down there, it's something you can't just easily get rid of and throw away. It is something you can keep. Our love was comfortable. 


Please know, that I am yours to keep.

Sea

...everything from me.

As i try to feel how that sand and these small stones could be so warm in a place like this. I could feel the frosty water down on my toes and legs. I started to spread my arms thoroughly through the bed of sand, i could finally feel it, how the water carries me through the sea. I can't see the rays of the sun, as it hides through the giant clouds. Warmth is all there is.

How the waters changes color when it gets deeper and deeper. How it makes the sound louder than the rain, how it looks so perfect even if my eyes are closed, how it brings serenity in my soul, how it crashes every sadness and emotion going through my mind, how it washes my messed up life, how it could be still after the storm, how it could be everything to me. It steals everything away from me.